So, there is a conflict going on within me and I have no intention of spilling it out. But I am jus writing this to see if it is eases the frustration a bit.
It is a conflict because, I can understand the other perspective, I also understand why I am getting all worked up (because I am not doing things I want to). So, it is a majorly my fault, but I just cant seem to muster up to do the things I want to. I really wonder how other people are managing things. I dont seem to do anything unless there is a pressure or a have to, there is no-go kind of situation. Either ways, I am not liking this behaviour and state of mine. Hope by the end of this year I complete it partially atleast.
Oh, also, in between all these frustrations (minor only the passing cloud kind ones) I did end up finally achieving the weight I always wanted to reach. In fact, I have gone a step further, I have maintained that weight for more than a month now.
Bye Kyatobhi, you are always on mind, and there is no writers block, I should learn to remove ignore unnecessary things. Some day, … one day!